Want to catch up on movies ... But who has the time ?

Hello friends.... The last movie we saw (hubby dearest and yours truly) was Vicky donor..that too after a gap of two years and since my parents were visiting us they insisted we go for a movie after ages !!!!( they would baby sit the boys ... I would not go to see a 3 hr movie on any other condition )... And we went to a IMAX which is a 7 min drive from our place ( yes...I counted the exact mins!! ) so that if need be we could return hastily back ... And so we did see about 3/4 th the movie ( till the part where Ashima discovers her tubes are blocked ) and then ..... Came the call... Both the boys were missing momma...And crying for ten mins or so before my poor parents who tried every trick in the book to console them before finally calling us up ! Secretly , I was thrilled they missed me sooooo much.... One part of my brain wanted to know the ending too...but I'm an OCM ... So I did the best thing ... Ran out of the theatre with lightening speed...hubby in tow ... Hubby muttering " we 'll reach in ten mins... Don't panic " but I was at peace only after reaching home and cuddling them both in my arms....

now I want to see "English vinglish "...I really want to see it... I'm a die hard Sridevi fan from her "chandni" days ..( mere hathon mein nau nau choodiyan ..I've danced on 10 different ocassions to that song in the good old college days )..but hubby does not want to take the chance again.. Lest we get a call again in the middle of the movie and I being an OCM create havoc in the theatre till we reach home ...hmmmm.. Anyone wants to see "English Vinglish" with me ?

chhotu starts crawling and the first tooth has appeared

Hello dearies..... Chhotu has started crawling and is all over the place now...infact Cheenu was a quiet kid playing about on his own when he was little but Chhotu... he has started exploring the whole house now...he even tries to stand up a little... All the stuff that need to get to a height( breakable by kid standards that is) needs to get removed...and fast !!
Also...Chhotu has started showing mood tantrums ...so if he's sleepy and i'm a little late in picking him up..he lets out a wail that literally brings the whole house down and then when i rock him refuses to sleep getting crankier by the minute...oops..tough days ahead :-) but then i'm their mom..i'm the toughest cookie to crack , right ?? Hmmm.. we'll see says the hubby !!

BTW the reply to "i love you " from Cheenu has changed to " ibadu too"

(toothy grin from ear to ear )

FIRST STAR

Cheenu got his first star- rather two stars ,one on each hand on Tuesday ...tra la la... I noticed them on his hands when we came back from play school. I asked him who gave him the stars and he replied "ma'am" .ok I said to myself.."what did you get them for ? "
Cheenu "moon"
Translation - he enacted the poem" twinkle star" in class and apparently did the actions so well his teacher gave him 2 stars...wow...wow....
Well it's his favourite poem and he has been enacting to the poem since he was 18 months...so..no wonder...wow.. But guess what ? That means his days of being distressed in class are over..yippee...time to celebrate :-)))))

Btw- it's sleep depravation day 5 or 6 ..I've lost count ... My under eye dark circles are making me look like a racoon not that i've seen a racoon in real life but the similarity from the pics is there for all to see...yummy mummy anyone???

Migraines and sleep depravation

I 'm sooooo sleepy and dead tired today....reason...had a bad migraine last night...didn't sleep well at all ...infact I haven't slept well for the last 3 nights in a row now...no wonder the migraine had to return !!
which just reminds me .. I haven't slept for 3 hrs at a stretch for the last two years!!!!!!! Two kids remember....so new moms don't get petrified by this... Somehow your body adjusts itself to this pattern too..our human body is AMAZING and more AMAZING is our brain !!
But I'll still list out small changes one can adapt to help the sleep depravation at night :

1.take all the possible help from all ends during the day - thank you dearest mom,dad, sis for coming over on short notice (read a phone call) to help me 10000000 times

2.sleep during the day whenever your kids sleep -most imp... Leave everything at hand and if your kid is asleep-SLEEP !!

3. Try some relaxation techniques during the day - deep breathing, meditation ,power naps..all help !!

4. Music...listen to soothing music...anything which calms your mind


Oops....gotta rush...chottu is up from his sleep ;-)

Mother's guilt ?????

Being a mom means having to balance between your own needs of space and that of your kids.So there are times when I feel the need to go and get a pedicure done(big feel good factor!!!) but maybe that particular day Chhotu will get clingy and cranky for no reason and I can't leave him at all inspite of what others tell me.mother's guilt ??

Then there are times when Cheenu who is otherwise such a fine natured boy ..always well behaved and all but after all he is a toddler , gets irritable too. I sometimes get a little angry and don't give into his demands.the result...he ends up crying and if he sleeps on his own without talking to me after that incident... I feel awful !!! I know discipline is necessary too but somehow I can't wait for him to get up and hug me again. Mother's guilt ????

But then has anyone ever heard of "father's guilt "??infact does it even exist .. I know of hundreds of instances of working moms who have mother's guilt when their kids are unwell at home and they have that important meeting at work. They say they just can't focus at work with their minds at home all along .but ever heard a dad complain of the same??

So there are different reasons for "mothers guilt" and it does exist..yes!! Very much !! In obsessive compulsive moms a lot more than others I think :-)) but there's no escaping this... Accept it or not !!

Chhotu needs mom !!!

The lil one, Chhotu is growing to be more naughtier than Cheenu was at his age !! He demands more attention from me with each new day ..rather he just wants to be with me all the time!! My little tail !!! So it's no wonder than that now-days both kids cry when they want to be in mommy's lap at the same time...hmmm.... Where are all the people who told me it will get better with time as the kids grow up ? :-) we are at the stage where both kids want the same toy at the same time.. Both kids want to be with mom at the same time ( which practically is all the time !!)....both kids want to bathe at the same time ... The list can go on and on ...

With kids life is unpredictable .. So much so for a disciplined and structured life as a couple with a fixed routine at least during the week ..but then that's the fun part of parenting !!! You learn to let go of so many mundane things that suddenly you realise that kids teach us the joy of living life everyday in no fixed pattern !! so even if there is chaos all day long and I'm dead tired at the end of the day .. When i see my angels asleep at night I cannot wait for another day to begin with new things to do with both Cheenu and lil shaku !!

Ilabu !!!

Here it is finally ... The day has arrived !!! The day when I said "I love you" to Cheenu and pat came the reply "ilabu"

This happened a few days back and ever since every time I tell him "I love you" he always answers back "ilabu" in his own baby talk !!!! Nothing in the world can match this feeling....though I know he doesn't quite know the meaning yet and since he is in his parrot -talking mode..picking up everything from your conversations and repeating words it is just another repeatation ..but still it feels amazing !!!

"ilabu" Cheenu !!!

Hi again

Somehow.....I'm not able to compose this post on my I-pad... Excuse all syntax errors please...

We're back !!!

we're back again in the blogging world ... ;-))) Thanks to hubby dearest for this !!

Celebrated Rakshabandhan with both boys ... went out for the weekend to visit my sis-in-law.. wow..some change from the routine and the boys loved meeting their cousins ...photos coming soon

As for our playschool status.. Cheenu is still not settled fully...(just had another throwing up incident just last Friday) ... but his anxiety lasts only till the door..he's fine once inside the class is what his teacher tells me...so..that's some progress... he's still just a small lil fella...so i'm sure he'll be fine in another month or so...

Shaku baby has started making gurgling sounds since yesterday so i get to hear a small "hmmmph" if he needs something that Cheenu is playing with . He 's perfected his crawling posture too so it's just a matter of time before his starts crawling now..which will make him mobile..which means i need to keep stuff away which he can lay his hands on from now on !!!

That's all for now ..more later... i'll leave you with a pic ( please excuse the quality ...just a random selection as i need to rush )

Internet off !!!

Hi all.... Have some trouble again with my broadband ... Will keep you all posted as soon as its up and working again. till then....me enjoying the joys of motherhood with Cheeku and shaaku baby :-)))

Sleeping Patterns

I'd like to share the different sleeping postures of Cheenu and Shaku today. At the time when Cheenu was about six months old, he used to love sleeping with his arm around my neck. It was this position he loved best and we would sleep without a care as long as he knew i'm next to him. How i loved his arm around my neck, he snuggled so close to me.. my little baby :-))

Now that Shaku is almost the same age i find he prefers to have his own space even while he wants me next to him. So he starts crying if I so much as touch him or put my arm around him when he's asleep. So i just lie close to him and in between when he wakes up, he opens his eyes (or sometimes with eyes shut too) ,reaches out to feel my face with his tiny fingers, manages to feel my nose or cheeks and then satisfied that it is indeed me next to him, goes back to sleep. 

i love sleeping next to both of them... snuggle up close to them and feel their breath..listen to the sound of their soft rhythmic breathing... feel their little pudgy hands and fingers on my face or neck,  get a whiff of their Johnsons baby powder fragrance ...that lingers on.. this is bliss indeed for me !!!

Don't you grow up too fast my boys for i cherish these days ...love having you both around me ... love  being a part of your children's world...a world where i too get to " sleep like a baby" with you.

First day of Playschool -Cheenu 15 Jun 2012

( This post was supposed to be done on Fri, 15 Jun 2012 itself...However my internet  was down for whatever reason....Thank God its back ...Hurray for connectivity [or net-tivity ;-)] In My defence I tried to sort it without success ...complained to hubby whose query was.. "Why do you need to blog on your desktop when you have an iphone ?".. well there can be no reasonable reply to that logic.. i'm still getting used to my iphone which was a recent gift from my hubby dearest ...a well earned one at that after having used my earlier cell for nearly 5 years...make it five and a half ! though Cheenu has used it more than me on a daily basis with his nursery rhymes app )


Hi... It was D day today..both for Cheenu and me ;-) and as expected we both were unprepared for what lay ahead of us...

From now on for all future references, OCM stands for "ME"- the Obsessive Compulsive Mother !!
As the saying goes" the child gives birth to a mother" ..in our case " Cheenu and Shaku gave birth to me, the OCM !!"
So, Cheenu got up early, had a bath ( remind me to share the dry clean day tales later) and some breakfast and was ready to go. He thought what a day... we are going out so early ..what fun...

Me, I had cramps in my tummy since i got up...remember the feeling on the day of exams..those butterflies that refuse to go away in your tummy... the same feeling came over me. I could not eat, could not do anything right that morning.(OCM ! OCM !!!)... kept glancing at the clock every 10 sec as i didnt want him to be late ..
So, I fed Shaku baby and while he kept my mom company, Cheenu and me  went to his Playhouse .
What a sight that greeted us !! Anxious parents, Grandparents, Nannies and little toddlers had gathered around. Cheenu too sensed something amiss and caught hold of my hand as tightly as he could.

The next thing...all kids being handed over to the teachers one by one as they screamed and screeched (the kids) their lungs out...Cheenu too did the same...
OK..he's inside now with 30 other wailing kids... 30 mins to go....all parents await outside while the kids are taken inside the classrooms ( it's  the settling period of 30 mins  everyday for  a week) ..hmm..i'm composed...my breathing is almost normal...
i even consoled a mom who could not help bursting out with tears as her daughter was taken inside...Oh the first call for change of clothes was her daughter's. She had thrown up !!

Hmmm.... the 30 mins wait over the kids were being escorted outside to the waiting parents again. I heard the teacher call out for Cheenu's change of clothes. My Champ too threw up !!
Once outside the class he ran to the door when he saw me.. My little bundle of anxious nerves... but he was calm the moment he came back to my arms...my baby !!!

So that was it...we both did well... me for my OCM behaviour did really well i think..no tears.. no melodrama ...and of course My Little Cheenu was my Champ today... i'm sure he'll take his time but eventually settle down.. years later we'll read this post together again dear Cheenu...till then..Happy Growing Up!!!

Too Tired to blog today

Hi...I'm too tired to blog today..went to the local salon to get a head massage..came back with a splitting headache instead..i think the head massage machine didnt help in relieving my stress of sleepless nights..rather it got my migraine back...so that's it for now...goodnight folks !!

WILL LEAVE YOU WITH A CUTE PHOTO INSTEAD

Kids Miss You Papa...come home soon !!

Hubby dearest is out of town on Official tour for a week.... and the kids are having a tough time without him... Cheenu misses him dearly every evening when its time for him to come home from work. Shaku baby is only 7 months old and too small to actually miss the physical presence of '"Papa" everyday but somehow by evening he too gets cranky and moody .


My Mom,dad and sister  came visiting last week and this is the first time Cheenu has expressed how much he misses them too.( Got mom to stay with us longer so she's still home while dad and sis left last weekend)

Also, our chauffeur (and Cheenu's new found friend) is on a month's leave !!! Hmmm.... too many people have disappeared at the same time for Cheenu's comfort level.

so now-a-days the conversations rally around the same topic as below 100 times a day (No exaggeration !!)

Me: Good morning Sweety-pie !!!

Cheenu: Papa??
Me: Papa's out ..for work..will be back on friday ,Baby.

Cheenu: Nana ?? (my dad..his granpa)
Me: Nana's  back at his place

Cheenu: Ditti ??? (my sis..thats the name he calls her)
Me: Ditti's back at her place too

Cheenu: Baboo ?? (His friend and our Chauffeur ;-)   )
Me: He's out of town ...will be back soon

Cheenu: Papa ???

Hubby dearest you elder boy has really started missing you ...PLEASE COME HOME SOONNNNN !! :-)))

P.S. Need to get my Dad and sis back here soon too :-)) Their little fellow misses them ..EVERYDAY !! EVERY OTHER MOMENT !!!!

Rains !!

Monsoon is here finally and with it brings relief from the scorching Sun ... The plants have taken their first sips of the rainwater and are waiting for more... But wait until its mid July and then the monsoon effect takes over... clothes don't dry for days... its humidity at its best...water pools everywhere...wet umbrellas... traffic jams .
But rains or No rains each weather has its own charm and must be enjoyed to the fullest.
We will be taking Cheenu for his first brush with rains the day it rains cats and dogs this season...wow..cant wait to get drenched head to toe. Shaku baby is too young and hence no getting drenched for him this year. Next year the whole family gets drenched...promise !!

Playschool ...4 days to go !!

I just went to Cheenu's playschool to get his starting " Kit" today (playgroup starts on Friday !!). I took Cheenu along too to familiarize him with what lies ahead and guess what...the moment we entered his class with other parents and a few unsuspecting kids like Cheenu who too had accompanied their parents... He started crying...i mean actually crying out loud and then stuck to me like a magnet the whole time we were there.
Hmmm.... we always think that the kids who cry out will be other kids and that maybe somehow our kid would be this amazing guy who gels around with everyone, smile on his lips and takes to school like a fish to water. ..sigh ! sigh !! kids give you a reality check..everytime.:-)))

OK sonny boy...No worries.. its OK to cry at the sight of other crying kids and parents.. No worries at all...Its my heart that needs control the first day he will start school.... maybe he will be fine but i will be the one trying to control my urge to cry...  somehow it feels my little one is growing up faster than i thought he would :-(

Day 1 : welcome to my Blog

This blog is dedicated to my darling boys ,Cheenu and Shaaku (their names as we fondly call them at home..) You make me want to be a better MOM each day !! and i love you two soooo much more than i will ever be able to express.

This is also dedicated  to my Hubby dearest and my sister !! :-))

It was on their insistence that i started this blog so that i could get back to doing something other than being " Mom" every single waking moment . Hmmm...the question is " How does one stop being "Mom"???
You may read everyday incidents,events and  everything a parent undergoes in my blog... thats all i can write on my first post..need to go catch some sleep before one of my boys wakes up at night.. Happy reading !!!