Migraines and sleep depravation

I 'm sooooo sleepy and dead tired today....reason...had a bad migraine last night...didn't sleep well at all ...infact I haven't slept well for the last 3 nights in a row now...no wonder the migraine had to return !!
which just reminds me .. I haven't slept for 3 hrs at a stretch for the last two years!!!!!!! Two kids remember....so new moms don't get petrified by this... Somehow your body adjusts itself to this pattern too..our human body is AMAZING and more AMAZING is our brain !!
But I'll still list out small changes one can adapt to help the sleep depravation at night :

1.take all the possible help from all ends during the day - thank you dearest mom,dad, sis for coming over on short notice (read a phone call) to help me 10000000 times

2.sleep during the day whenever your kids sleep -most imp... Leave everything at hand and if your kid is asleep-SLEEP !!

3. Try some relaxation techniques during the day - deep breathing, meditation ,power naps..all help !!

4. Music...listen to soothing music...anything which calms your mind


Oops....gotta rush...chottu is up from his sleep ;-)

Mother's guilt ?????

Being a mom means having to balance between your own needs of space and that of your kids.So there are times when I feel the need to go and get a pedicure done(big feel good factor!!!) but maybe that particular day Chhotu will get clingy and cranky for no reason and I can't leave him at all inspite of what others tell me.mother's guilt ??

Then there are times when Cheenu who is otherwise such a fine natured boy ..always well behaved and all but after all he is a toddler , gets irritable too. I sometimes get a little angry and don't give into his demands.the result...he ends up crying and if he sleeps on his own without talking to me after that incident... I feel awful !!! I know discipline is necessary too but somehow I can't wait for him to get up and hug me again. Mother's guilt ????

But then has anyone ever heard of "father's guilt "??infact does it even exist .. I know of hundreds of instances of working moms who have mother's guilt when their kids are unwell at home and they have that important meeting at work. They say they just can't focus at work with their minds at home all along .but ever heard a dad complain of the same??

So there are different reasons for "mothers guilt" and it does exist..yes!! Very much !! In obsessive compulsive moms a lot more than others I think :-)) but there's no escaping this... Accept it or not !!

Chhotu needs mom !!!

The lil one, Chhotu is growing to be more naughtier than Cheenu was at his age !! He demands more attention from me with each new day ..rather he just wants to be with me all the time!! My little tail !!! So it's no wonder than that now-days both kids cry when they want to be in mommy's lap at the same time...hmmm.... Where are all the people who told me it will get better with time as the kids grow up ? :-) we are at the stage where both kids want the same toy at the same time.. Both kids want to be with mom at the same time ( which practically is all the time !!)....both kids want to bathe at the same time ... The list can go on and on ...

With kids life is unpredictable .. So much so for a disciplined and structured life as a couple with a fixed routine at least during the week ..but then that's the fun part of parenting !!! You learn to let go of so many mundane things that suddenly you realise that kids teach us the joy of living life everyday in no fixed pattern !! so even if there is chaos all day long and I'm dead tired at the end of the day .. When i see my angels asleep at night I cannot wait for another day to begin with new things to do with both Cheenu and lil shaku !!

Ilabu !!!

Here it is finally ... The day has arrived !!! The day when I said "I love you" to Cheenu and pat came the reply "ilabu"

This happened a few days back and ever since every time I tell him "I love you" he always answers back "ilabu" in his own baby talk !!!! Nothing in the world can match this feeling....though I know he doesn't quite know the meaning yet and since he is in his parrot -talking mode..picking up everything from your conversations and repeating words it is just another repeatation ..but still it feels amazing !!!

"ilabu" Cheenu !!!

Hi again

Somehow.....I'm not able to compose this post on my I-pad... Excuse all syntax errors please...

We're back !!!

we're back again in the blogging world ... ;-))) Thanks to hubby dearest for this !!

Celebrated Rakshabandhan with both boys ... went out for the weekend to visit my sis-in-law.. wow..some change from the routine and the boys loved meeting their cousins ...photos coming soon

As for our playschool status.. Cheenu is still not settled fully...(just had another throwing up incident just last Friday) ... but his anxiety lasts only till the door..he's fine once inside the class is what his teacher tells me...so..that's some progress... he's still just a small lil fella...so i'm sure he'll be fine in another month or so...

Shaku baby has started making gurgling sounds since yesterday so i get to hear a small "hmmmph" if he needs something that Cheenu is playing with . He 's perfected his crawling posture too so it's just a matter of time before his starts crawling now..which will make him mobile..which means i need to keep stuff away which he can lay his hands on from now on !!!

That's all for now ..more later... i'll leave you with a pic ( please excuse the quality ...just a random selection as i need to rush )